I Walk Away

I used to handle all the communication between the birth mother and my husband. He didn't want to talk to her, she didn't want to talk to him, and the mediator (me) received the brunt of the attack from both sides.

I don't mediate anymore, I don't talk to the birth mother on the phone unless she or I answer it, and any email communication between my husband and her gets the final okay from our lawyer. Granted, the lawyer is more expensive than I am-but not so expensive as the cost to my sanity.

I am tired of being asked what I think the birth mother is thinking, or what she might do, how will she respond to [fill in the blank]. And it isn't just my husband asking, it's his whole family. How in the hell I became such an expert on the woman I have no idea. We are two totally different people and haven't ever had a conversation with her outside of our son; and the culmination of it usually ended up with me being screamed at over the phone.

I am now entirely hands off, whenever I'm asked anything about the birth mother, I just shrug my shoulders. I no longer make the phone calls or write the emails. It truly isn't my concern. I love my stepson dearly, and I would rather him be with us, but it isn't my battle.

I am happy now that he is 13 and that much closer to being of the age where he can decide where he wants to live. Though I'm not sure if the birth mother will listen to his wishes since she deems most of what he wants as "whimsical".